I never knew it before, but now its easy to seee ..

Second place. I always feel like I'm in second place. I get something, she will get something better. I get an award, something else is important. Towards my bestfriends, I come after someone else. I do something worth being proud of, no one gives a rat's ass. I'm always nice, but one time I become annoyed , and Im the biggest biaatch in the world. I always do favors, and one time I say no, I become the child who is too fckin lazy. I run out of things to talk about, I become the girl who can't keep in touch. I always do what they say, but when I ask for the smallest of favors, I supposedly need to get off my ass and figure it out. I give someone my all, they don't even give me half. I try my best, but they catch me slippin' once, and Im the worst child in the world.

When will I ever be good enough ... for anyone?

To the 'rentals : When will I be good enough? When, I become the president? When I invent something that will change the world? When I do something that will get the attention of the rest of the world? Why the hell do you think I try so hard in school? Why do you think, I get so proud when I pass a test? I do it, because I feel that it's what you want. I do everything in school, for the sake of you guys. If I didn't care, I wouldn't even study. I wouldn't even bother. When pass, you always look at the negative. If I get an 80 on a test, you say , you can do better. I KNOW I CAN DO BETTER. But can't you just be proud of me? Not even a good job. Or a hug. Or something. Something that will let me know that you give at least a shit. You tell me you're proud. And in your eyes, im still a kid. So why can't you give me the same attention you would to a kid. Be proud of my smallest achievements. When I mess up, help me. Don't just leave me. When I give you advice, Im not blaming you. I am just trying to help you. You always throw bitchfits like, go find a _ _ _ that will be better than me and will let you do whatever you want to do. DONT YOU UNDERSTAND, I dont want another _ _ _. I want you. And you alone. Im just trying to help the sake of the _ _ _ _ _ _ -daughter relationship we have.... But I guess you'll never know .
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I've vented to this blog many times before. And I have always mentioned about me, bottling up my feelings. What I never mentioned was, most of the time, the problems revolve around the house. But when it isnt, it's still all around me. I can't get away from problems. They always find their way back to me somehow. Wether it may be in the form of boy problems, punishments, screaming, whatever. Sometimes, I just want to run away. But, this is Philippines. And people get kidnapped and get their intestines taken out. So , no. I won't do that. But still. Sometimes, I feel like, I am the only person that could understand me. And it sucks, cause I want somebody there to help me, and go through it with me.


Ugh, sorry for this totally emo post. I haven't done one in'a while, and I was in need of letting out my inner emotions about the 'rentals. Uggggh. School tomarrow. Bizzye fa now bloggga's!

I havent taken the time to say so, so I shall say it now.

R.I.P
Michael Jackson
&Farrah Fawcett

Ugh. I was just watching Michael a couple of days ago on TMZ. And he seemed fine to me. But, I guess not. I hella barely got in the car and my dad hella says , Michael Jackson died. And I was like, frozen for a minute or so. Cause I couldn't believe it. I mean, people die all the time, but when people like Michael and Farrah die, not just their families are affected, almost the whole world as well. Wether they were our inspirations for their dancing, or maybe because of their hot bodies when they were young, either way, they have affected our lives, one way or the other.

And, I was like one of those people who didn't really care until the day it happened. Well, I was hoping and wishing for Farrah to get better, due to the fact that I thought Michael was all goood. But shtill. Dont tell me you weren't one of those people that just started caring cause he/she died. Dont bullshit me and say that you didn't laugh at those jokes about Michael before.. But enough of my negativity. Farrah, was a sex icon. An inspiration. And most of all, the woman wanted to be, and the woman men wanted to have. Michael, is the pop king. An inspiration to dancers all around the world. And most of all, a giver. They will be remembered.

You make everythin' alll riggght

CURRRLY FRIES >:D

My new addiction/crave; Icy Blue Sprite Float

On zee bus goin' homeskies!

My pasalubong for the lilbrat. &Ofcourse, I bought one for myself. Taahaa
My bombass glasses >:D

I think Im going to start a Dilly Bar wrapper collection =)

The t-shirt I bizzought.

June 24 - All of those pictures above are from this dizzay. So I woke up, finding out, NO SCHOOL =) Whipee! Haha. Then after going back to shleep then waking up then talking to Jah, I found out that Blanche and Monet were going to the mall. And since I didn't want to be stuck at home, I decided to come with. In 2 hours, I managed to get 400 out of the 'rents >:D Mwuahaha! Lol. And I had 200 from the money I saved up, so that equaled to 600 =) Hahah! So I got ready, and then off to Blanche's house! I hadda wait in the rain for a shtupid tricycle. I was glad when I saw that it was a blue one, cause that's the one I need to go to Blanche's house. Mwuaha. Too bad he was hella snobby! Shiiiit. You do not treat customers like shit, driver! Then once I got to her house, we were off to the bus waiting thingy. Lol! But we had to wait for another tricycle -_- Thennn, we got on the bus. And I got wet too. So I think that was the source of how I got shick. :( Boo. But I like it when I get sniffles. Call me weird. But I do =) Hahaha. Then, we got to SM. First stop, was the bank. So that Blanche can get her ca$h money ;) Hahah. Then we went to artwork. We didnt find anything good, so next stop, Penshoppe. I always buy clothes from there, but I think their clothes get suckier by the month -_- Ugh. Then, SM department store, nada there either. But we go hungry so we decided to eat @McDonalds =) Yummm. As you can see from ^^ up there, I was quite satisfied. Lawwl. Then off to our shopping hunt again. Lol. We decided to just shop at artwork since it was the cheapest we could find. After that, we went to Dairy Queen to buy Ice Creams. Well, at least me and Monet did. Blanche went to Scoopery. Lol. Then I went to Gonuts Donuts to buy the lilbrat somn somn. And Monet bought cotton candy. Which she soon flattened so that it would fit into her bag, lawls. Then , off to the buses to go home. We then seperated. Ugh, I got another snobby ass tricyle driver. So I decided to just get off and walk my ass home. Ugh. Im too tired to do today. And plus, I still need to read Florante -_- Ugh. K. bizzye for now blogggga's!

I keep livin' a lie

Tuesday - Today was effin bi-polar. I was happy, yet inside, not. School started with Algebra 2. I had no problem wit that! Hahah. I mean, I may sound like a dork saying this, but I LAHVE ME SOME ALGEBRA >:) Lawl. Then after, was TLE. We had to present our "Changes" report. Changes physically, behavior-wise, and how we treat others. Lol. Then aftaa that, was Stat. Uggh -_- Stupid ass electives! Booshiet. Then , computer. We had to learn about Excel -_- WHO CARES ABOUT ALL THE OTHER EXTRA INFORMATION? Like what fckin toolbar and shiet. I nair give an eff! D:<>:) Mwuahahah! Recess, was ehh. I miss the ol' days :( PE. Was so effin stupid. I hate our stupid teacher. HE CAN SUCK A MUUHFCKIN DUCK. Lol! But on the other hand, I learned I can reach/jump purrty far :D Haha. Im so proud of that =) Then Values. Ahh, one of my favorite subjects :]] Mr. Valentino knws wsssp! Hahaha. For Ms. Cris, I guess errbody in the High School department has to participate in the whole Foundation Day shet. Wellps, us Sophomores (teheee) are doing the Red Cross Foundation :D Haha, Im like an understudy-ish. Haha. If there's not enough people, I guess I'm gonna have to be in it. Haha, but Im helping Edly do props! :D Whoot. I always laahve helpin her. Teehee :D Anyways, after that, I got KFC for lunch. Mwahaha WIN! :D Lawl. After lunch, was English. Eh, it was a so-so period. We didn't do much. Hahah! Filipino, I had to recite this love letter I wrote. Uggh. Hahah! I felt so embarrased x) Science went on FUHEVA! After a long ass seatwork (which felt like a quiz) , we had to take some notes. UGH! There were so many things to write. Anyways, in the progress of taking notes, me , Edly, and Albert had another one of our annual laugh marathons. Minus Rochelle :[ Awwwes. After that, it was my last class. I thought we weren't gonna do anything -_- But nooooooo! We had a seatwork. WDF man -_- Lol. FINALLY school got out. But uggh, dont get me started, unless you would like to see me mad. Thanks :D Anyways, Ima go do hw and shtuff. GBYE BLOGGGA'S!

Say that you'll stay

Sunday - I woke up and the 'rents were leaving. Its for they're friend's birthday or whatevs. So anyways they left. Then they drove back just to bring home food. I watched some telebisyooon. And then, I got hungary. So I ate chiiiiicken wit rice. Yum :) Then I just used my lappy until kuya got finished eating. After kuya ate, Sky came by :D I meeeshed that lilone. He's so much more "kid" looking now cause of his short hair. I miss him looking like a baby :( Anyways, we gave him a showaah and then after him, was Momo. That lilone has tooo many fleas. Goshdarrnit. Haha! Then after him, I took a shower. Then we turned on the A/C to help Sky go to shleeep. Haha! I wanted to go to shleep too. I always fall ashleep in cold places. The bus, class, the freakin movies x) Haha, while Sky was sleeping, me and kuya watched the weekend Foster's marathon. :D Then aftaa, Sky woke up, then he wanted to go home, so I took him home. After that, I just watched tv and did homework HOPING that my majaa and fajaa would come home already since I was STARVING! After waiting for 3 hours, they said to just order since they weren't coming home til waay later. So me and kuya ordered McDonalds. I ordered a McChicken Sandwich, like always, with Oreo Fudge sundae >:D After eating, it was like, haayla late! But after, the 'rents came home with more McDonald's. But I nair gave an eff cause I was shleeeeeeeeppy! I hella ktfo'ed aftaa!

Monday - I woke up surprisingly early! I mean, I didn't know I could wake up at 5 am after shleepin at 12 . Hahah. I showered, and then I found out that I didn't have a skirt! I hella panicked and shit. I was frantically loookin for it and craaaap. But mom found a way to get me a shkirtt. Haha. Then, I got to school early, and I was checked for fever. It took like 5 effin beeps -_- Hahaha. Anyways, I got up, and things were like they were before again. Haha! It was our batch that was outside. Then the whole assembly shet -_- And school went hellla shlowly! BUUT! Before lunch, while waiting for Ms. Cris, since she was being late, I was gonna look for her. Right when I looked outside, "He" was hella right there! And then he was like, Oy! Hahah! And I was hella like HI!! And he was like HII!! Haha. Cutesies. OMFG. Speaking of "him". -_- FUCK IT. I am nair an option! Pssha niggah. Fck youuu! x) Hahaha. Everything else was all gouuda! I meesh hanging out wit my coffeee doe! Even though we have little side conversations here and there, I miss them looong ass convos. Hahah! Now, back to finishin' homework! :D Bizzzye blogga's!

And I talk like this cause I can back it up

Woke up, hearing madness. So , I went downsturrs, and used my lizzaptop there. Hahah, I barely got on and he hella im's me outta nowhere. It was kinna cutesie tho. Anyways, after that, we ate, then I was forced to take a shower first. Like always -_- Hahah! So I left an away saying "Showering, leave something cute" haha. Then he hella says "Ill leave a picture, that's cute" lmao. Cocky, but in'a cute way =) Hahaha. Anyways, I get ready, then we leaveeee! Haha. Before we went to their house, we first went to RFC just to buy soda. Buuuut! I got my one liter of APPLE C2. MWAHAHAHHA >:) Shit's on eythang. Hahah. Then, we were offf to my aunties/cousins. Whoot! Hahaha. All I did there was internet, chill, PSP, eat, chill some more, and eventually shleeeep. Hahah! Even though it doesn't sound like much. It was fckin tyrin! Haha. In between chillng and shleepin, me, ateh, and the cousins, went for a late night drive. Haha anyways, im tiiyurd! Nanite blogga's!

There are no boundaries!!

Day One : I was excited! Cause I was finally going to be reunited wit my usuals! Hahaha. Me and Bea totally had one of our annual "Mimi and Bebe" reunited moments :) Hahah! Then we just discussed random shtuff. And I got elected as the Public Relations Officer =) Hahaha. I didn't even want to be elected doee. Shiit. Hahahaa. Then, aftaa that , it started RAINING. And when we went out, Majaa and Fajaa were there already. They decided to take us to Manila with them, to not waste time. After running errands wit them, we went to Aristocrat and ordered some BOMBASS FOOD! Hahah, then aftaa that, I just went to shleep in the car, then mom ran more errands. And then, we went home to change real quick, then we went to Festival mom. I got to buy some school supplies we needed. We also got to walk around all of Festival, yaay. So I have officially went alll around Festival mall. Hahah. Then aftaa, we got to eat at Wendy's! Yipee! Even though I was cravin' a Monster Coke Float, its gooood. Hahha. Then after that, we went homes, got ready for the next day of school, then shlept.

Day Two : I was kind of prepared for a looong day ahead of me, until I remembered that this whole day will basically be all about introduction -_- Introducing ourselves to the teachers and whatnot. So, yeah. Haha. It was quite boraaang! Then afta school, me, Edly, Lianne, and my lovely braaahder Dylan went to Dunkin' Donuts. Haha. I ordered a choco sprinkle donut wit an icy choco. YUMMM! :D Hahaha. Then, Lianne left, leaving me and Edly. Then, when we came back, we met up with Bea. Then Edly left, leaving only me and Bea. Like always. Hahaha. Then, since brahder needed it, I gave him money to go home, teehee. Hahaha. Then, Bea vented about her missing Kenneth, aweees. But then I had to leave, which made her be stuck with Mikhael. Lol! :D Haha, then I got home. I immediately started doing hw. Cause zuuuh. Thass how it's gon be this year! Haha. Anyways, aftaa that I went online. Lol. I had a weird talk wit Albert, haha. Even though he's in my class, I feel like, Im so distant from him :( Im always used to turning around and seeing him there :( But not anymore :(( He's like waaaaay across the classroom . Then, I "made up" with Martin, since I was bein such'a snob/biaatch. Lol! Then, studied Filipino wit the 'rents since I needed it, lawwl, then went naniteee :D

Day Three : TGIF! Buuht, I was like, faaack, cause it was gon be lessons allll day. The day felt like it was gon go on FUHHHEVA. But, I was just exagerrating. I just found out one of the guys in my class likes me, and NAIR. EWH EWH EWH EWH YUCK. I think he heard me say it, but shiit, I NAIR GIVES A FCK. :D Hahah. &Eff you if you think Im mean. He reminds me of my little cousin, and he looks, ugggh. Omfg. Hahah! Anyways, afterschool memories , like always. Love love love. Got home, changed, ate. Went on the lizzaptop, watched tv. Ate bread&cheese, cooked bacon&eggs then ate it wit rice. Ahhh, im hella satisfied right now. Kbizzye!

You wonder where you're going next

Pt 1 : Yesterday : Did nothing . Today : Try to be effin productive Michelle -_- Sheesh.

Pt 2 : Dreaaaaaaaaaam entry! Haha! Anyways, my dream was so weird! So I went to sleep thinking "Trace, Trace, Trace! Dream about Trace!" So anyways , in my dream, it started off with me looking at a gift. It said to "Lavender Mimi" HAHAH! I was like, wtfffffffffff? Lavender Mimi? That sounds so effin gay. And I read who its from, and it said "Ant" . And Anthony from Metro Station usually writes that after a tweet. Haha! And then I look behind me, and Anthony was helllllla calling my mom Tita? Hahaha! I was like WTFFFFFFFFFFFFF?!?!?!?!?!!?!? Then after that, me and someone were on the floor . But we had a towel and a signed poster with us. I forgot who was in the poster but anywayssss. Hhahaa. Anthony was hella like, give her Trace's towel and a signed Metro Station poster. I WAS LIKE WTFFFFFFFF HELLA FREAKIN' OUT. But only Mason and Blake were with him :( No Trace Darnicles! Hahahaha. But yeah, I meet too many famous people in my dreams! x)

Hehe, K bizzzye!

Strawberry Fields

Agggh, day started off with me finding out that we weren't going to have a family gathering D:<>:P Boo. Anyways, I pretty much just did nothing for the whole morning/afternoon. Hah. Then, my dad came home, and he came home with shnacks and new shampoo. Which smells so friggin bomgdiggity. HAHAHA. Then, my cousin came back from Japan, and my auntie gave us shtufff. I got a cutesie top, a shirt dress, watch, belt, candaaay :D Hhaha. Then aftaa that, just ate dinner, made burger patties and meatballs, then watch tv. OHP! And watched my all-time favorite MMK episode, by far. Details vv in Pt 2. Hahah. Anyways, now im watching tv with ateh until I fall ashleeep. SCHOOL IN LESS THAN A WEEEK! FUUUUUU- ! D:<

PT 2 : I dont want to get into the details of the episode, cause once I do, it'll be prett-ty darn obvious. Anyways, I love how the girl handled everything. Buut, everything happened to work out for her. We had the exact same situation, but unlike her, I pushed away every guy who was willing to be there for me :( Agggh. Fuhhget this topic. I LOVE TRACE :D Hahah! I cant seem to get Kelsey out of my mind.


*Ill swim the ocean for you, the ocean for you, woah -oah -oah -oah Kelsey :)

Shake shake ;)

That last picture of him is OH SO SHMEXXY! <3>

Look at his yearbook picture, Even without all the tats and the fame, I WOULD SOOOOO DATE HIM =)



Say hello to METRO STATION.

The day started off, quite swell because my mom made me a breakfast burrito :) Haha. Then after that, I just killed time. Then, me and my lovely best friend/ original had some Chelle&Jah qt =) Hahah! Then my mammas told me that she wasn't gonna give me money to go to Alabang Town Center to see ^^ Metro Station. So, yeahs, I was put in a very bad mood. But, thanks to Blanche for calling and Monet for pushing me to go =) Hahah! My mom gave me 200. My dad was going to give me more, but he couldn't find his money -_- Booshiet. So we got there, and it was a little before 6? It was gouuuda cause the concert was supposed to start at 6:30.

We saw people selling Metro Station CD's and if you are one of the first 100, you can get it signed. Too bad it was 255. :(( . We heard people calling us, and when we looked up, we saw that Martin and his friends were there as well. We waited for a reallly long time. So Monet and I went around looking for good spots. We found one in the verrry back. Then , the concert started. The view there was guuhreat until everyone stood up in their chairs! BOO SHIETS. So we raaan all the way to our old spot. The spot was still good =) Hahah! I screamed my lungs out, while the speakers almost blew my eardrum out. Haha, all in all, it was a good concert. Im too lazy to upload videos, so I shall do it tomorrow, or sunday =)) Hahaha.

After it was done, We took pictures with the posters since, well, we couldnt get near them :( Hahah! Then, Martin and them went downstairs to talk to us. Whoever his friend was with the white shirt, he was cute =) Speaking of cute guys, THERE WERE HELLLLALALALALA CUTE GUYS THERE! Americans, some other ethnicity, whatevs. THEY WERE CUTE! :)) Hahah. Then , we went upstairs to buy a drink. After that, they went back on stage to do their pictures and sign the CD's. I was soooo jealous seein' all the girls get to hug by him :( Hahah! So we went downstairs just to roam around. There was one time where a whole bunch of people screamed. So I went to where they were. What happened was, Trace threw his sharpie into the crowd. I hella went there waving/screamin and shiet, but he gave everyone the look like, whoops, no more :( . But I guess their keyboard guy saw me, cause he hella threw his sharpie in my direction. I had it in my hand for two seconds, and it slipped, and some fagget ass niggah bitch took it >:(

Then after that , we all went home. When Boys Like Girls comes here for their mall tour, ima buy a CD and a VIP ticket :)) Hahah! And when Metro Station comes back, ima buy a CD and VIP ticket as welll :D Hahahahah!

Now, I have a sore-ish throat, and lightheadedness? Hahah! Im'a shower, cause, Im in need of it x) Anyways, GOOD DAY. Gnight bloggga's!

&BTW! TRACE IS SO CUTE, THAT I DONT EVEN WANT TO BELIEVE THAT HE IS EVEN HALF RELATED TO MILEY. YUCK YUCK YUCK! BUT IF EVER THAT WE GET MARRIED, welll, I guess I'll just have to deal with it =) hahahhhahah! :D

Sophomore Year Resolutions :

No more procrastinating
Stop bein' such'a loud mouth
No trouble this year :D
Homework first before computer
Try harder in Filipino
Save up moola
Clean room and keep it clean
Grow out hair ? Haha!
Try to get into top 3. Or 5 at least.
Make ateh and mammas proud.
Get over stage fright
Stop being shy
Make handwriting look better, lol.
6 oclock diet
Lose weight, really.
Keep that weight off.
Gym hopefully?
More fam time, less internet time.
GET INVOLVED.

It's alright, It's ok!

So everyone kinna woke up early, for a weird ass reason, haha! Anyways, Sky was there, and I was immediately hyper. Hahah! Then we ate breakfast. And while eating, we discussed how everyone woke up early, and we should go to Enchanted Kingdom. My mom said, let's go. I was hella like, uhh, are you serious? Hahah! Cause my mom stay cattin sometimes. But she was dead serious. I had like 6-7 outfit changes? Hahah! Cause my mom was sick of me wearin skinny jeans and a tshirt wit sneakers. So, I had to wear something dressy yet casual. Hahah! I just threw on some jeans, dress-ish shirt, and some strap sandals. Haha! Good 'nuff :) So we drove for like an hour? Which was hella quick. And we got some Mcdonalds. Well, some of us had Mcdonalds while the others had Jollibee. Then after that, we were offf to Enchanted. When we got there, it was closed :( And I got blamed cause I was the one that went online. But I didnt check the dates, I only checked the promos :[ Hahahaha. Well, at least I researched! Haha. So , we ended up going to Festival mall. We bought tickets for Terminator, and the 'rents wanted to go in already. The effin movie wasnt even done yet! Hahah. So we left, and just roamed around the mall. The lilone was bein a buggaboo, cause he wanted to go on the coaster. Mom put me in charge of the money and then kuya came. So, we ended up riding the bumper cars cause it was the only one where we can all fit, and at the same time all the three of us can go. Hahah! That was fun tho. Me and kuya kept bummpin Michael. And at one point he got stuck. Lawwwls. Then, we went back and the rents werent even done gett'n my dad's iPhone openlined. So madre gave us the tickets and we just went by ourselves. I watched like the first 15 minutes then went to sleep. Woke up for a minute the went back to sleep. And when I woke up, the rent's were there with popcorn & C2 and it was the interesting part. So win-win! Hahaha. Then I watched the rest. And it was good. When it was done, madre and dad wanted to watch all the scenes they missed. So we stayed , and once again, I fell asleep. I always fall asleep whenever I'm ina cold environment. The car, movies, Blanche's house, school, lawwwl. Then we went to the market and shopped. Wipeee we have hot cheetos >:D and also tortillas for quesadilla's and breakfast burritos. Ahh, tomorrow, mall with Blanche, Albert, and Monet. Then Saturday, fammmm time! Wheee. This is my perfect summmer ending :) Well, ina way ;) Haha! *And my dad said that maybe sometime around August we can go back to EK. Haaaye ;)

Cause you're a , showstopper..

Hola, hello, yo, whuttup, wsup?! My morning started off with the friggin sun in my face D:< Gaaah, I hate when that shit happens. Then, we watched the Lakers face a disappointing defeat, awee. Then izzafter that, was breakfast. And Sky was with us, again. HAAHA. Then, I went upsturrs to get on zee webcam to show Jaaahjahjah my braids. But I ended up taking it off. But I regret doin so, because I want my hair back up. Not flingin here and there. Then izzafter that, I went on blogged and whatnot. Went downstairs watched tv. Went upstairs blogged more. Then showered. Then watched more tv, eat dinner, blog, then thass all for today? Hahaha =) Anyways, Im not in the mood to do one of those long, deep thinkin kinna entries I do, so gnight!

Theres nothing I can say, she just rocking that thaang like ...

My morning, started off with Momo licking the life out of my face. Haha! So that really got me up. Then after that, I went upsturrrs to use zuuh computer. Then, checked my messages, im's, and all that goodstuff. Im addicted to AJ Rafael nowadays. Hah. Then after that, I went downsturrs to eat. Then I watched Mythbusters. Only cause that show is super awesome to the max >:) Then, I went back on, to update my tumblr, which I update waaay too much x) . Then I went back downsturrrs to bake wit mammas. Haha >:) I need to start documenting all the shit we bake. Hahah. So chyeah, while doing so, I watched Bud Brothers, iCarly, and Drake and Josh. After that, I decided to showaah. Then, I cleaned my shoes. AGAIN. This is the 3rd day ina row. After this, I suhwear , I will treat my shoes with more care. Amen :)) . Haha. Then, I went on my lizzaptop, and no one was on, so I got shleeepy. Then I woke up to my ateh's voice telling me it was time to eat. I only ate a little. And I thought I was still going to die from hunger, until I ate mangoes+bagoong. Haha. That filled me up. Anyways, Ima just do whatevs then shleep. Gnight blogga's!

Let it go , let it go, let it go, LET IT GO.

Last night, me and kuya watched UP. I kinna fell asleep in the middle cause, I was quite shleeeepy. So, yeah. Kevin is so cute ^_^ . Hahah! And uhhh, what else? Ohp! After that, we watched some retarded ass GI Joe shit. And some Strongbad videos. I missed those x). Then, I finally went downstairs, and talked to bessfriend. Cause it felt like she was the only one I could trust with a certain matter. AND AND! Sistar Jizel surprised me wit a very cutesie IM :) Haha, then I went to shleeeeep. My morning, was fckin retarded? The parentals were fighting again. And the little brah was hella panicking cause he saw my mom pack her stuff -_- Ugh. Don't want to get too deep in that subject doeee. Anyways, after that, Jazmin totalllly cheered me up ^_^ Then I reminisced lightweight wit Michelle, ahhh. Them good 'ol days :) Then I posted some Yeezy pictures on my tumblr, which made my tumblarity go whoooosh x) Hahah! TUMBLR=BLOGSPOT. Hahah! Then after that, I ate. Then talked to Chris and Migelllll. Haha. Me and Migel were talking about Mr. Lepinsky and his sex talk. HAHAHHAHAHA x) Lol, then after that, I took a nap. Then woke up, to the sight of Sky. Hahah. Then, I cut som'a my hair, cause of deadends, and then, im'a do whatevs then shower :) Kbizzye.

PT2 : I have spent too much time waiting. Like , 2 years? And I know that I always fell head over heels for other guys, but that never meant I stopped liking you. It just sorta meant that I liked them more than you. From the moment I saw you, I immediately had a feeling like we were going to have a strong connection with each other. Judging from the way things are, I guess that that strong connection, is just the strong friendship we have with each other. The first time you told me about her, I had to act happy for you. I mean, I wouldn't stop you if she was the one you really wanted. Looking back, I have officially spent two whole summers waiting. But wtf am I waiting for? Something like snow on Philippines. Never happened, and never will. That's why starting yesterday, I have officially decided , to let you go. I mean, I spent two whole years hiding the fact that I liked you, but it was stupid cause everyone else around me knew, without me having to tell them. It makes me sad about the fact that I waited for so long knowing that nothing was going to happen. I should have done this when the new year started, but it's a new school year. And Im still livin with the mentality of keepin '09 the best year eva. Even though Summer was nair crackin'. I still have the rest of the year to live it up. So, yeah. Im over it, over you. Skadooosh you douche.

50 told me, go 'head switch the style up...

So , since the last time I've blogged, I have done nothing, but stay home. How fckin sad is that? I haven't went out to do something, since our last movie night, which was ... Two months ago? Urrgggh. Im kinna excited that summer is ending already. So at least something will make the time fly again. So, Im complete with supplies, books, and alla that. Now, I just need to know my class x) Hahahah.

*I can always be the girl who can get hurt, and yet keep a bigass smile on her face. I try and act to the best I can that no matter what anyone says to me, I can just suck it in and not let it ruin me; as a person. But it's only a matter of time before, I freakin just, burst. And yeahs, I do , do that every now and then. But when will it get to the point, that even burstin isnt enough? That. it will get to the point where it takes over my life? I always believe that no matter what, certain people would be there for me , until the end. But when I really think about it, most of the time, all I have is myself, my oldest ateh, and God. I believe that they are the only ones that listen, when no body else will. But I find it hard opening up to people. Cause I have done that, quite a number of times, and I've just been let down so many times... So whenever my ateh asks me, why dont I open up to her, it's because I'm scared. And I know that she's my ateh and shell never leave me, but still... At the end of the day, I just bury all these angry, sad, emotions. And then , I repeat that over and over... And keep that smile on my face.

First Row : mememe :)
Second Row : My Photography
Third Row : Shoe Shoppping plus, nahting beats Chow King Halo-Halo :)

June 3 : A bittersweet day. I guess. The morning had cuppycakes , and Sky. Finally , after waiting a month or two, we're finally enrolled. Thank goodness! Then, mom told us to get ready, cause we were school supply/shoe shoppin. Ahhhh. So many things done in one day! After all that walking, and whatnot, we stopped at Chow King and had dinner there. Surprisingly, that was the only meal I had. But surprisingly, it was enough :))

It's friday but there's no where to go. Anywhere is cool cause we're not goin ho-ome.

Lol , so let's talk about my day, yesterday. HAHA. I woke up, and thought it was just a regular day. But after playing with Sky and eating breakfast, turns out that our cousins were coming over. So everyone was in'a rush to clean, shower, and get ready. Luckily, we were all ready before they came. Hahaha. The whole day consisted of food, good laughs, pictures, tv, more food, and play time :)

Today, was more on the negative side, than it was on the positive. Anyways, got up, had a regular morning/afternoon. Then, all of a sudden, my mom told me to get ready. I didnt even get a chance to take a shower! YUCK. So, yeah, we went out to get fit for our uniforms. Then, ateh and kuya got their braces changed. It took them fuheva tho! I had to sleep in the car. With no a/c! But after waking up twice telling my dad that it was hot, he finally turned on the a/c. And whadda yknow? A couple of minutes after that, they were done. Then we went home, I took a shower, I blogged, then we ate :) Hahaha. And now, I have nothing to do. Blaaahp! Gbye fa now blogga's!

We got the party wit uss

Two posts tozaaaay. This first one is about two dreams I had, lol. And the second one, about yesterday and today.

Anywho, my first dream involved Chris Brown. Which is quite weird, because of the fact that I have not even thought of him since the whole Rihanna thing. Not because I stopped liking him for beating her up, I could care less (lol). It's just the fact that he was in the news, and whatnot, then he vanished. So, I kinna stopped thinking bout him. Anyways , I think it was a concert? Or he made an appearance at the mall that me, kuya and ateh were in ? Haha, anyways, he called out 4 people. The 3rd Person had a chance to film their whole experience. So, two people whom I do not know got picked first. And guess who was the third? Me! Haha, and the 4th was my Kuya. Which was , kinna, weird. HAHAH. So yeah. We all got to go to him. But , there were hella guys in front of us, including my kuya. And all us girls were like 2 rows away from him >:P And after everything was done, my kuya was like "Didnt you find it weird that all the guys got to be in the front?" I was just like urggh. Haha, then next thing you know, I wake up. Not like the fully awake type tho. The type of awake that, you are still shleepy.

So, I went back to shleep and had another dream. This time, it was wit Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. Hahaha. I suhwear, if only you could record my dreams on tape x) Hhaha. So chyeah. It took place on'a couch. HAHA. Me and Kristen on one side, Rob on the other. Then, we were eating something with frosting I believe. Cause when Kristen had frosting on her face, Rob licked it off. A verrrrrry cute thing to see btw. HAHA. And omfg, in my dream, Rob had the cutest laugh everr! Grr, I wish this all happened in real life, cause I mean, come on now. Robert Pattinson, less than a foot from you? Hahaha. Then outta nowhere, my ateh came, and no not ateh margoux. My other ateh. And she had cookies and cuppycakes :) Haha, then sadly, I woke up =(