So , since the last time I've blogged, I have done nothing, but stay home. How fckin sad is that? I haven't went out to do something, since our last movie night, which was ... Two months ago? Urrgggh. Im kinna excited that summer is ending already. So at least something will make the time fly again. So, Im complete with supplies, books, and alla that. Now, I just need to know my class x) Hahahah.
*I can always be the girl who can get hurt, and yet keep a bigass smile on her face. I try and act to the best I can that no matter what anyone says to me, I can just suck it in and not let it ruin me; as a person. But it's only a matter of time before, I freakin just, burst. And yeahs, I do , do that every now and then. But when will it get to the point, that even burstin isnt enough? That. it will get to the point where it takes over my life? I always believe that no matter what, certain people would be there for me , until the end. But when I really think about it, most of the time, all I have is myself, my oldest ateh, and God. I believe that they are the only ones that listen, when no body else will. But I find it hard opening up to people. Cause I have done that, quite a number of times, and I've just been let down so many times... So whenever my ateh asks me, why dont I open up to her, it's because I'm scared. And I know that she's my ateh and shell never leave me, but still... At the end of the day, I just bury all these angry, sad, emotions. And then , I repeat that over and over... And keep that smile on my face.
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