I have always put other people's happiness before mines. Even if I have to sacrifice what I want, to make the other person happy, then that's what I'll have to do. But I've decided, enough. I'm fed up. I hate being the unhappy one of the crowd. While I'm out there helping every one else, I never take time and help myself. And at the end of the day, I blame myself for never being happy. Then I go around saying I hate everything. But by the end of the week, it'll just be back to the way it was before. It's just a cycle that keeps on goin.
I told myself, the next time I see a genuine guy, I wouldn't let him pass me by. But someone beat me to it. Someone who I feel doesn't deserve him. Cause I believe that she will just end up hurting him. And he nair deserves that. At all.
But he chose her. And I cant do anything about that. Like I said, their happiness before mine. I even helped them -.- But like Jah said, I need to put my own feelings into consideration. I just find it too damn hard. But if she ever does hurt him, she's missing out on something great. And I just wish that he can see that he can do so much better. Now, all I can do, is distance myself. Cause if I dont, I'll just continue hurting. And thats quite unhealthy for me.
I just wish he doesn't chase me when I try to run away from him. Cause, that will just make it so much worse. Ugh! Gnight blooooooooogga's!
-whoot whoot for venting!
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