lifes full of challenges not all the time we get what we want

IM CRAVIN FOR SOME (HIS) LOVIN'

:( Booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. I miss your daily im's. And nightly phone calls. How you made me feel like I was the most beautiful girl on earth, regardless of what I really look like. I was the happiest girl when I was with you. And though I didn't say much or do much, looking into your eyes while holding your hand was enough. A simple text or IM from you, made my day. I felt like we were one of the cheesiest couples out there saying "I love you always and forever" but, IDGAF. Cause you know what? I meant it. I will love you always and forever. I dont know what the future has in store for us, but wether that love maybe affectionate, or just a friendly type of love, I still love you regardless. Hearing you say "I love you" or "I miss you" or "I want to see you already" made me feel like I was floating on'a cloud. When you tell me, you just im'ed me just cause you felt like it. How you called to say MERRY CHRISTMAS exactly @12. How you called to say Happy New Years :) Yes, these little things made me happy. VERY happy. Happier than anyone in the world maybe. Remember how I told you, I didn't deserve you? That was true. You treated me like a little princess. Like everything should be givin to me at my command. I miss forcing you to go home, because you always want to wait until I get picked up. Which forces us to have a childish fight saying ;

-Fine, im not gonna say I love you until you go
-Say it first then I'll go
-*pinches face* NO! NO NO! You go first
-*he stands still and towers me, fckin gigantor xDD*
-FINE! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU :))))))
-Always and forever :D

That used to happen? Everyday? Hahah! You made me feel comfortable. You made me feel at ease. You made me feel like the most beautiful girl in the room. You made me feel , like life was really worth living. You made me feel, these feelings no one ever has. When you told me not to be jealous of all the other girls trying to get at you, you said dont worry, cause you chose me. And not them. Then things went all wrong, and we ended up, breaking up. &When you got a girlfriend just a couple of weeks or maybe a month or two later after we broke up? Yes it did hurt. But did I show it? No. Did I make a big deal out of it? No. Instead all we did was ignore each other. And acted as if the other person didn't exist. Dont you know how much that hurt me? :( . And then we made up just a couple of months ago. Which was perfect. A new schoolyear, a new start. Brand new. And when I first met your mom? Ofcourse I was scared! I thought she wouldn't like me. But she was friendly. And she actually wanted us to stay together. Cause she said I made you happy. &On that day, I told myself, I was going to make this relationship work. I was going to fight. Until you just had to screw things up. And you gave me an easy way out. You told me, we should break up cause I dont want your parents to find out. Ofcourse I took the easy way out. It was the only choice you gave me! If you were to say, let's fight for this relationship. OFCOURSE I WOULD HAVE CHOSEN THAT OPTION.

I dont know if im feeling this way, cause "she" likes you now. And im jealous. Or maybe ive been feeling this way all along? And ive just been lying to myself thinking otherwise? I dont know. But either way, I would really like if we had a second try :((