In 2009 , Michelle learned ...

• No guy is ever worth it. In 2008 , she never let a guy hurt her like that. She was the one making the decisions and she was the one doing whatever the fuck she wanted to do. She was Ms. Independent. Every girl wanted to be like her, and every guy wanted to have her. I'm not talking about me. Im talking about the Ms. Independent in all of us girls out there. We shouldn't let one guy ruin us. We shouldn't let one guy get the best of us. They don't deserve our lovinn. Mwahaha >:) We're too good for them playa playas anyways :))
  
• You can do whatever you set your mind to. I told myself that I could do better in my schoolwork, and what the hell, I did do better :) I didn't lose focus and I didn't get distracted, well... Not as much that is :) Haha. I told myself that I can get over him, and even though my mind didn't believe it, my heart told me that I could move on and that he's just one of the many boys I'll encounter in my life ^_^
  
• Blood really is thicker than water. I wouldn't be who I am if it wasn't for my family. They are my backbone. They are my everything. Despite the fact that they annoy the hell out of me most of the time, I still love em to death ;) No matter how far we may drifft, something will always bring us back together. That's the beauty of having a family like mines tho :) Bittersweet. When its bitter, oh boy, is it bitter. Haha. But when it's sweet, you can't get enough of it =)
  
• Some relationships do last. Take mines & Jah's for example. Its been what? 2 years and ... 2 months? Mwahaha. See? We do love each other long long time ;) Haha! &look at mine's and Ferdie's, haha! After a whole year of not talking, he still remembers his bestfriend :) Lol. We freal need to kickit one time. We've been here for almost 2 years, and we haven't even seen each other, not even once. Booshiz. Look at mine's &Mela's, I mean we may not be as close as we were before, but something will always keep us together. &that is the promise of being best friends forever, corny as it sounds :D Haha! &Most of all, my relationship with my father dearest Marco. Even if we don't talk for a whole month, or two whole months, or three whole months, he will always be one of the number one guys in my life =)
  
• People change, wether we like it or not. I had to learn that the hard way. But it's a lesson learned :)
  
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  God doesn't give us anything we can't handle. He will give us many challenges and obstacles in life , but he will not give us anything we can't handle. He just wants to test us, he doesn't want us to suffer. So no matter what we do, we shouldn't over-react and whatnot.
• how to use facebook. Mwahaha. Yes, I barely started using this year, but hey. Whatever stfu. Haha! It looked interesting, and myspace was really getting boring
  
• Tumblr isn't as interesting as before. I made my first tumblr in '08. And people posted really interesting stuff. Like, real blogs. About their thoughts, insights in life and whatnot. Now, tumblr is starting to become the new myspace. And who the fuck really cares about your tumblarity bitches? Haha! Get over it. People who post a whole bunch of stupid shit start to cover up those who post real shit. Which is why, once a month, I unfollow a lot of people, haha :))
• Photography is more than just taking pictures. Its about capturing the emotion you felt at that exact moment. Capturing your surroundings. So that when you look at these pictures in the future , you can still relate to it &be like "Oh yeah! That was the time when ... blah blah blah". Haha!
  
• Enjoy the little things. I mean yeah, I would rather be in Cali with my best friends, but then again, that shouldn't stop me from having fun with my friends here & my family here. I have fun here too so when people ask me where I would rather be, I usually don't know what the eff to say.
  
• Sometimes, always&forever, doesnt always mean always&forever. "I love you forever, forever is over".
  

Cwissmass Eve : Well we got up and relaxed for a little bit. Ate breakfast. Then showered cause we were going to SM to buy last minute gifts. Then we went home and started on our food. First things that were made : My brownies. Ateh's fruit salad. Then after that we started working on the main dishes like spaghetti and stuff like that. Then we had to rush and went to church. Everyone rushed to get ready. And as usual, I was done first. So I had the chance to KTFO on the couch. I was soo tiyurd. Haha! Then I woke up with my Kuya's hat on my head o.O I was like, uhm, k? Haha! Then we went to church for the Simbang Gabi and we meant to go to the 8 o'clock mass. But we ended up coming towards the end of the 7 o'clock mass. So we stayed then finished the mass. When we got home we just did finishing touches on everything. Mom cooked the stake, finished the carbonara and boom. NOCHE BUENA TIME :DDDDD Hahah! We ate, damn. I was helllla full. Then Ate Em called. Then open presents time ^_^ +I got 500 from Kuya Alex. Wheeee :D Me & Kuya watched Weeds for a bit, then I went to sleep.

CHRISTMAS DAY :) Got up. Took a shower. Got ready, then went to Cavite. Didnt really do anything but EAT. Play with fireworks. GET MOOLA ^_^ And thats about it :D

Ellow blogspot :)

I missed you. Anywho, Im going to update you with my life more often than I do on Tumblr now :)) Haha! Or atleast try to :)

So let's see. December 20. We went to Imus for my godsister's and cousin's birthday. My godsister Nicole and Cousin Louise :) haha. We didn't really do anything. We just hung out, jammed to music, and ate (just like any other Filipino party, mwaahaha). Then we went to the court to watch volleyball played by gay guys. Omg, I love them. They make me laugh, and they are now my new volleyball inspirations. I could not take my eyes out of the court, suuhwear. Haha. That's how interested I was. Lol.

December 21. I woke up at 6 am. Cause they said practice was 7:00 am sharp. So I took a shower, got ready and left. I left at about 6:50. Just enough time to get to school on time. Then I waited there for like half an hour. Until finally Edly came, then other people came. But Mr. Michael wasnt there yet so I texted him and after a couple of minutes, he was there. Then, training started :) Wahaha >:) Oh how I missed it tho, freal :) Haha. Running, jumping, serving, setting. Waaaah! Haha. &For the first time ever, I didnt feel tired after. Kinna sore&thirsty, but not tired :)

December 22. Ugh, stupid shit. Im hella heated today. Just want to be left alone. K, bye.

I havent been having good days lately. Yeah, I may smile and laugh for sometime, but when its said and done, im sad & pathetic most of the time. &Recently I havent been doing anything except crying. And I knw its stupid. Cause, Im crying over the littlest shit. Like how we're still here, how no matter what the fuck I do, I still cant get over Mikhael. No matter how much I force I myself. &Things at home. At the end of the day, I am a miserable wreck. I punch the walls and scream my lungs out. It makes things better for a while, but then after that, its gone.. Im back to my old self. Fuck the year 2009. Bring me back 07&08.

Those people up there are the only ones that can brighten my day no matter what they do. They dont even have to do much. They just have to be with me, and Ill be super duper happy :)