I havent been having good days lately. Yeah, I may smile and laugh for sometime, but when its said and done, im sad & pathetic most of the time. &Recently I havent been doing anything except crying. And I knw its stupid. Cause, Im crying over the littlest shit. Like how we're still here, how no matter what the fuck I do, I still cant get over Mikhael. No matter how much I force I myself. &Things at home. At the end of the day, I am a miserable wreck. I punch the walls and scream my lungs out. It makes things better for a while, but then after that, its gone.. Im back to my old self. Fuck the year 2009. Bring me back 07&08.

Those people up there are the only ones that can brighten my day no matter what they do. They dont even have to do much. They just have to be with me, and Ill be super duper happy :)