some things i just got to get off my chest

• I hate it when people tell me to do something, a certain way. Cause then it makes me mad, then lazy. So instead of originally planning to do it, I end up ignoring the person, and not caring about the work that needs to be done.
  
• I do my best to do something that'll make you guys proud of me. So if I can't do it at home, I try to make you proud of me academically. Do you know how happy I was when I found out I was top 3? Then you hella just shut me down like that, I mean I'm not gonna let it bother me, just take my feelings into consideration.
• Dont think that just because I said that means I want something to happen between us. I love you, but not in that way. I dont want to have you as a boyfriend, but I can't live with the thought of ever losing you as someone special.
  
• Everytime I notice you online on AIM, I just have to i/m you. I dont know why, but I have never stopped liking you. From the moment we watched Shutter together, haha! (That gave it away, lol) Urgh. I just wish, that we could have had more time to spend together :)
  
• &Last but not the least : I dont blame you for anything thats happening right now. I just wish you had the courtesy to tell me what is going on. Its been 3 days since we last talked. Youre always telling me to tell you the truth so that it wont be awkward between us, but wth do you think youre doing? I hope that you wake up from this fantasy that you're having and realize whats really going on......