Dear JEMA

Let me just start off by saying that I love all of you, oh so much. But it's time to face the truth. You guys know that when you say JEMA, you are basically saying "Jazmin, Jizel, Angel, Aimee". You can deny it all you want, but you know that its true. We all know why Erica is MIA. And well, its not like I have a choice.. It's official. There is officially this drift between us. And its like me, then all of you. Call me weird or stupid but I cry to myself everytime I see pictures of the 4 of you together. What makes it worse, is that sometimes you have em with Mela. Call me greedy or whatever, but I just get really jealous and I dont know .... I just break down and cry. It's not even your fault either. You guys are just living your life. And well, at least you all have each other. I dont. I guess I'm just jealous. But, this drift is killing me. Whenever something happens to me, you are always the ones I want to turn to first. But, I just can't do it anymore. &Jah, you know you're like my ultimate bestfriend. And well, even we drifted. We used to be super close. The distance didnt even affect our relationship, at all. Hmph. I guess I'm just sad. I miss all of you. I just want to be with you guys .... Is this goodbye? Nair! Haha. It is a "see you when I see you" thing though. You can all continue living your life, and I'll continue living mine..... Im sorry if I disturbed you if you were doing anything important, but I just had to get this off my chest, haha ....

When I fall in love

I fall. You would think that I've learned my lesson by now. I fall too deep in love with the wrong guys, and I send off the true, genuine ones because in my head, I don't think that they're good enough. What a fool I am. I never thought to myself that maybe I'm the one that's not good enough for them. With Mikhael, I was so insecure. I was so shocked that I had gotten the most perfect boyfriend out there. I even told him that, I didn't deserve him. He told me I was foolish. Then proceeded to telling me how much he loved me. Then, I let him go. What the hell is wrong with me? Seriously. Can somebody tell me? :(