Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Dear Jerome;

Hey you! *sigggh* I dont even know what to call you anymore. I would really love to keep you as my besst, but like all relationships, its not a relationship if there is only one person doing all the work. Its tiring. Hoping that youll always be there for me, even if in fact, I know you wont be. You dont know how much I need you most of the time. But youre never there. Why did you have to drift from me? WHY. WHY. WHY. Fuck.

Dear Marco;

Remember those days when you were the main guy in my life. When I couldnt turn to anyone, and you were there? Remember those days where we would never run out of things to say? Where we would talk despite the time difference and the distance. Remember when we both knew the most out of each others' lives? Now, we dont know a single thing and we cant even have a decent conversation. What happened? Where is my father dearest?

Dear Quynh;

Hi sister. I miss you, like so much. And I know that youre a pretty busy woman. Haha, you've always been the busiest person I knew. And well, since youre so busy, and well, Im pretty busy, but not really haha, we havent talked since when? That last time we webcammed? That was the last real talk we had. And you know what? I miss our talks.

To the three of you, I dont understand why we had to drift. Especially you three. The one who I thought would always be there for me. Its.... sad :( Especially for me, and I think Im the only one sad about it.

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

I guess there's no one but myself? For always putting myself down. Never having enough trust in myself. Never believing in myself. Never being good enough....

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Person I hate most - I dont think there is one. But maybe like Ms. Cathy said, its my personality to always see the best in people. So maybe there is someone but I just cant convince myself to hate you? Anyways, just do whatever the fuck you wanna do. Cause what makes me hate you wont do anything to make you want to change, so fuck it. I'll just do whatever and you do whatever. Peace sucka. It aint like Im gonna see you in the future anyway. Deuces

Person that caused me a lot of pain - Hey Lyndon. Yes, its you that I'm putting on here. Even if whatever that never happened between us was my fault, it doesn't mean that it didn't hurt. You knew me. You knew that when I fall for someone, I fell hard. And when I fell for you, then you just left me hanging? You don't know how suicidal I was. I was literally cutting myself every chance I could. I wasn't thinking straight. I cried myself to sleep. I cried in the bathroom in the nights you didnt call. You sent me spiraling down an unhealthy path. I was glad that Jazmin and them were there for me to get my shit together. Whenever I heard Lyndon, the words pain, hurt, and suffering was all I could think of. When I think of my Hayward life, you're always at the top of the list, not number one but definitely there. Our memories are bittersweet. At first they were nothing but great moments. You are the one that gave me the lesson of heartbreak. Even if we were technically never together. Thanks for making me a stronger person. Thanks for showing me the dangers out there when it comes to love. But you see, the thing is, I think it's because of you, I don't let people in as much anymore. Just a single thought of you, can break me down. Make me feel worthless. Make me feel like I was never good enough. Thanks for sticking with me through the toughest of situations. Thanks for walking me home that one night when I knew them Nortaynos would be out. Thanks for calling and giving me real talks. Thank you for telling me I was beautiful despite me convincing you I wasnt. Thanks for never giving up on me. Thanks for always looking out for me. Thanks for treating me like a princess. Thanks for knowing about me more than most people I know. Thanks for sharing all those things about you. Thanks for the memories. Even if they do hurt like a bitch. "Guess I was burned, but I call it a lesson learned". I find this as closure between us. So I can officially just stop even thinking about you. Stop bein jealous if I see a picture with you and Mela or even see you two talking. I shouldnt give less than a fuck bout it. So, for the last time, goodbye Lyndon Monsanto Martinez.

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Hi Lola. Sometimes, I miss your presence. Especially whenever I'm crying. I miss how in the summer when Kuya and Ate already had school and you knew I didnt like sleeping alone, you would let me sleep next to you. I miss you in general. With you, it felt like home. I was glad that you met Jerome though. And that he helped you that day you slipped. At least you got to meet my best friend. And well, thats a big deal to me, so thank you :) I like to think that you are up in heaven, looking out for all of us. You are our guardian angel. Don't ever think a day goes by where mom forgets you. Because i know for sure, she never will. You are and always will be in our hearts. Thanks for everything lola, I love you :)

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Kendrick - Hey kenny. I miss you. Anyways, it says someone I don't talk to as much as I would want to, and well, basically thats you. You were basically my best friend. Well, not really best. Just one of my great friends. We used to talk every night. Well, talk? More like cupcake, haha! I miss hearing you say I love you. I miss hearing you say I miss you. I just plain ol' miss and love you. Period. I don't know why we can't even have decent conversations with you. &Oh yeah, nigga stop poppin pills and getting high and whatever you've been doing with ya life. I love you and I will always always always care for you. And as for becoming my "first" idk anymore. I still wish that you were a big part of my life though. And when I visit, please make time to see me. Or maybe I can go to your house and just chill? Haha. K, I love you biatch. Even if I feel you dont give a crap bout me anymore.

Angela - You will always be my ateh. Even when we're old enough to do whatever the fuck we wanna do haha! I will always cherish our precious moments together even if there wasn't a lot. I love you and i miss you oh so much. :)

Ian - YOURE GAY FOR NOT KEEPING IN TOUCH HOE! Hahaha. I still love you though ;)

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

There are a lot of people I wish I could meet. So I guess this can go out to all of you? Hi. I'm sure whoever you are, you possess a quality which makes me want to eat you. Whether youre a good singer, dancer, a good actor/actress, or well, just plain cute. Haha! Hi, I'm Michelle & I'm a big fan :)

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Sadly, I don't think I have an internet friend :( But! There is always @sneakerbeezy. Haha. Well, Carlo, I would just like to say thank you. For liking my things on tumblr. And thanks for making me feel special when I found out I was one of your Tumblr crushes. haha! :)

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

dear ex-boyfriend

hello there. how have you been? these are simple questions that I can't even say to you. why? cause i know that it will cause a fight between you and your girlfriend. and no matter how many times i run it in my head, i still dont understand why she acts that way. okay fine sure, im your ex. but thats the thing, im an EX. which means anything we ever had, is over. and i told you i still sort of had feelings for you BEFORE you got back together with her. and once you were together again, i realized i never loved you from the start. it was like you said, infatuation. so tell your girl to stop getting her panties in a bunch bout me. and besides she should see the way you act towards other girls. your girlfriend, should be worried more about them than me, cause honey, i could give less than a fuck bout the both of you :) ktnxbye! :D

Day 6 — A stranger

Hey Stranger! My name is Michelle :) As long as you're not fake nor someone who possess things that may annoy me, I'm pretty sure we'd be great friends! Haha. I'm down-to-earth. And I'm prett-y damn chill. If we become friends, trust, I will never let you be sad. I'll do whatever it takes to light up your day :) I would really appreciate it if you approached me first cause, I'm not usually the one that makes the first move. I've been known as the friend that will always be there for you. I'm pretty awkward when I first meet people but you have to get to know me cause I'm not good when it comes to first impressions, so don't judge me by that, haha :) So stranger, if you're ready for a wild ride, then, just come and talk to me. I don't bite haha :)

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