I never knew it before, but now its easy to seee ..

Second place. I always feel like I'm in second place. I get something, she will get something better. I get an award, something else is important. Towards my bestfriends, I come after someone else. I do something worth being proud of, no one gives a rat's ass. I'm always nice, but one time I become annoyed , and Im the biggest biaatch in the world. I always do favors, and one time I say no, I become the child who is too fckin lazy. I run out of things to talk about, I become the girl who can't keep in touch. I always do what they say, but when I ask for the smallest of favors, I supposedly need to get off my ass and figure it out. I give someone my all, they don't even give me half. I try my best, but they catch me slippin' once, and Im the worst child in the world.

When will I ever be good enough ... for anyone?

To the 'rentals : When will I be good enough? When, I become the president? When I invent something that will change the world? When I do something that will get the attention of the rest of the world? Why the hell do you think I try so hard in school? Why do you think, I get so proud when I pass a test? I do it, because I feel that it's what you want. I do everything in school, for the sake of you guys. If I didn't care, I wouldn't even study. I wouldn't even bother. When pass, you always look at the negative. If I get an 80 on a test, you say , you can do better. I KNOW I CAN DO BETTER. But can't you just be proud of me? Not even a good job. Or a hug. Or something. Something that will let me know that you give at least a shit. You tell me you're proud. And in your eyes, im still a kid. So why can't you give me the same attention you would to a kid. Be proud of my smallest achievements. When I mess up, help me. Don't just leave me. When I give you advice, Im not blaming you. I am just trying to help you. You always throw bitchfits like, go find a _ _ _ that will be better than me and will let you do whatever you want to do. DONT YOU UNDERSTAND, I dont want another _ _ _. I want you. And you alone. Im just trying to help the sake of the _ _ _ _ _ _ -daughter relationship we have.... But I guess you'll never know .
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I've vented to this blog many times before. And I have always mentioned about me, bottling up my feelings. What I never mentioned was, most of the time, the problems revolve around the house. But when it isnt, it's still all around me. I can't get away from problems. They always find their way back to me somehow. Wether it may be in the form of boy problems, punishments, screaming, whatever. Sometimes, I just want to run away. But, this is Philippines. And people get kidnapped and get their intestines taken out. So , no. I won't do that. But still. Sometimes, I feel like, I am the only person that could understand me. And it sucks, cause I want somebody there to help me, and go through it with me.


Ugh, sorry for this totally emo post. I haven't done one in'a while, and I was in need of letting out my inner emotions about the 'rentals. Uggggh. School tomarrow. Bizzye fa now bloggga's!

I havent taken the time to say so, so I shall say it now.

R.I.P
Michael Jackson
&Farrah Fawcett

Ugh. I was just watching Michael a couple of days ago on TMZ. And he seemed fine to me. But, I guess not. I hella barely got in the car and my dad hella says , Michael Jackson died. And I was like, frozen for a minute or so. Cause I couldn't believe it. I mean, people die all the time, but when people like Michael and Farrah die, not just their families are affected, almost the whole world as well. Wether they were our inspirations for their dancing, or maybe because of their hot bodies when they were young, either way, they have affected our lives, one way or the other.

And, I was like one of those people who didn't really care until the day it happened. Well, I was hoping and wishing for Farrah to get better, due to the fact that I thought Michael was all goood. But shtill. Dont tell me you weren't one of those people that just started caring cause he/she died. Dont bullshit me and say that you didn't laugh at those jokes about Michael before.. But enough of my negativity. Farrah, was a sex icon. An inspiration. And most of all, the woman wanted to be, and the woman men wanted to have. Michael, is the pop king. An inspiration to dancers all around the world. And most of all, a giver. They will be remembered.

You make everythin' alll riggght

CURRRLY FRIES >:D

My new addiction/crave; Icy Blue Sprite Float

On zee bus goin' homeskies!

My pasalubong for the lilbrat. &Ofcourse, I bought one for myself. Taahaa
My bombass glasses >:D

I think Im going to start a Dilly Bar wrapper collection =)

The t-shirt I bizzought.

June 24 - All of those pictures above are from this dizzay. So I woke up, finding out, NO SCHOOL =) Whipee! Haha. Then after going back to shleep then waking up then talking to Jah, I found out that Blanche and Monet were going to the mall. And since I didn't want to be stuck at home, I decided to come with. In 2 hours, I managed to get 400 out of the 'rents >:D Mwuahaha! Lol. And I had 200 from the money I saved up, so that equaled to 600 =) Hahah! So I got ready, and then off to Blanche's house! I hadda wait in the rain for a shtupid tricycle. I was glad when I saw that it was a blue one, cause that's the one I need to go to Blanche's house. Mwuaha. Too bad he was hella snobby! Shiiiit. You do not treat customers like shit, driver! Then once I got to her house, we were off to the bus waiting thingy. Lol! But we had to wait for another tricycle -_- Thennn, we got on the bus. And I got wet too. So I think that was the source of how I got shick. :( Boo. But I like it when I get sniffles. Call me weird. But I do =) Hahaha. Then, we got to SM. First stop, was the bank. So that Blanche can get her ca$h money ;) Hahah. Then we went to artwork. We didnt find anything good, so next stop, Penshoppe. I always buy clothes from there, but I think their clothes get suckier by the month -_- Ugh. Then, SM department store, nada there either. But we go hungry so we decided to eat @McDonalds =) Yummm. As you can see from ^^ up there, I was quite satisfied. Lawwl. Then off to our shopping hunt again. Lol. We decided to just shop at artwork since it was the cheapest we could find. After that, we went to Dairy Queen to buy Ice Creams. Well, at least me and Monet did. Blanche went to Scoopery. Lol. Then I went to Gonuts Donuts to buy the lilbrat somn somn. And Monet bought cotton candy. Which she soon flattened so that it would fit into her bag, lawls. Then , off to the buses to go home. We then seperated. Ugh, I got another snobby ass tricyle driver. So I decided to just get off and walk my ass home. Ugh. Im too tired to do today. And plus, I still need to read Florante -_- Ugh. K. bizzye for now blogggga's!

I keep livin' a lie

Tuesday - Today was effin bi-polar. I was happy, yet inside, not. School started with Algebra 2. I had no problem wit that! Hahah. I mean, I may sound like a dork saying this, but I LAHVE ME SOME ALGEBRA >:) Lawl. Then after, was TLE. We had to present our "Changes" report. Changes physically, behavior-wise, and how we treat others. Lol. Then aftaa that, was Stat. Uggh -_- Stupid ass electives! Booshiet. Then , computer. We had to learn about Excel -_- WHO CARES ABOUT ALL THE OTHER EXTRA INFORMATION? Like what fckin toolbar and shiet. I nair give an eff! D:<>:) Mwuahahah! Recess, was ehh. I miss the ol' days :( PE. Was so effin stupid. I hate our stupid teacher. HE CAN SUCK A MUUHFCKIN DUCK. Lol! But on the other hand, I learned I can reach/jump purrty far :D Haha. Im so proud of that =) Then Values. Ahh, one of my favorite subjects :]] Mr. Valentino knws wsssp! Hahaha. For Ms. Cris, I guess errbody in the High School department has to participate in the whole Foundation Day shet. Wellps, us Sophomores (teheee) are doing the Red Cross Foundation :D Haha, Im like an understudy-ish. Haha. If there's not enough people, I guess I'm gonna have to be in it. Haha, but Im helping Edly do props! :D Whoot. I always laahve helpin her. Teehee :D Anyways, after that, I got KFC for lunch. Mwahaha WIN! :D Lawl. After lunch, was English. Eh, it was a so-so period. We didn't do much. Hahah! Filipino, I had to recite this love letter I wrote. Uggh. Hahah! I felt so embarrased x) Science went on FUHEVA! After a long ass seatwork (which felt like a quiz) , we had to take some notes. UGH! There were so many things to write. Anyways, in the progress of taking notes, me , Edly, and Albert had another one of our annual laugh marathons. Minus Rochelle :[ Awwwes. After that, it was my last class. I thought we weren't gonna do anything -_- But nooooooo! We had a seatwork. WDF man -_- Lol. FINALLY school got out. But uggh, dont get me started, unless you would like to see me mad. Thanks :D Anyways, Ima go do hw and shtuff. GBYE BLOGGGA'S!

Say that you'll stay

Sunday - I woke up and the 'rents were leaving. Its for they're friend's birthday or whatevs. So anyways they left. Then they drove back just to bring home food. I watched some telebisyooon. And then, I got hungary. So I ate chiiiiicken wit rice. Yum :) Then I just used my lappy until kuya got finished eating. After kuya ate, Sky came by :D I meeeshed that lilone. He's so much more "kid" looking now cause of his short hair. I miss him looking like a baby :( Anyways, we gave him a showaah and then after him, was Momo. That lilone has tooo many fleas. Goshdarrnit. Haha! Then after him, I took a shower. Then we turned on the A/C to help Sky go to shleeep. Haha! I wanted to go to shleep too. I always fall ashleep in cold places. The bus, class, the freakin movies x) Haha, while Sky was sleeping, me and kuya watched the weekend Foster's marathon. :D Then aftaa, Sky woke up, then he wanted to go home, so I took him home. After that, I just watched tv and did homework HOPING that my majaa and fajaa would come home already since I was STARVING! After waiting for 3 hours, they said to just order since they weren't coming home til waay later. So me and kuya ordered McDonalds. I ordered a McChicken Sandwich, like always, with Oreo Fudge sundae >:D After eating, it was like, haayla late! But after, the 'rents came home with more McDonald's. But I nair gave an eff cause I was shleeeeeeeeppy! I hella ktfo'ed aftaa!

Monday - I woke up surprisingly early! I mean, I didn't know I could wake up at 5 am after shleepin at 12 . Hahah. I showered, and then I found out that I didn't have a skirt! I hella panicked and shit. I was frantically loookin for it and craaaap. But mom found a way to get me a shkirtt. Haha. Then, I got to school early, and I was checked for fever. It took like 5 effin beeps -_- Hahaha. Anyways, I got up, and things were like they were before again. Haha! It was our batch that was outside. Then the whole assembly shet -_- And school went hellla shlowly! BUUT! Before lunch, while waiting for Ms. Cris, since she was being late, I was gonna look for her. Right when I looked outside, "He" was hella right there! And then he was like, Oy! Hahah! And I was hella like HI!! And he was like HII!! Haha. Cutesies. OMFG. Speaking of "him". -_- FUCK IT. I am nair an option! Pssha niggah. Fck youuu! x) Hahaha. Everything else was all gouuda! I meesh hanging out wit my coffeee doe! Even though we have little side conversations here and there, I miss them looong ass convos. Hahah! Now, back to finishin' homework! :D Bizzzye blogga's!

And I talk like this cause I can back it up

Woke up, hearing madness. So , I went downsturrs, and used my lizzaptop there. Hahah, I barely got on and he hella im's me outta nowhere. It was kinna cutesie tho. Anyways, after that, we ate, then I was forced to take a shower first. Like always -_- Hahah! So I left an away saying "Showering, leave something cute" haha. Then he hella says "Ill leave a picture, that's cute" lmao. Cocky, but in'a cute way =) Hahaha. Anyways, I get ready, then we leaveeee! Haha. Before we went to their house, we first went to RFC just to buy soda. Buuuut! I got my one liter of APPLE C2. MWAHAHAHHA >:) Shit's on eythang. Hahah. Then, we were offf to my aunties/cousins. Whoot! Hahaha. All I did there was internet, chill, PSP, eat, chill some more, and eventually shleeeep. Hahah! Even though it doesn't sound like much. It was fckin tyrin! Haha. In between chillng and shleepin, me, ateh, and the cousins, went for a late night drive. Haha anyways, im tiiyurd! Nanite blogga's!

There are no boundaries!!

Day One : I was excited! Cause I was finally going to be reunited wit my usuals! Hahaha. Me and Bea totally had one of our annual "Mimi and Bebe" reunited moments :) Hahah! Then we just discussed random shtuff. And I got elected as the Public Relations Officer =) Hahaha. I didn't even want to be elected doee. Shiit. Hahahaa. Then, aftaa that , it started RAINING. And when we went out, Majaa and Fajaa were there already. They decided to take us to Manila with them, to not waste time. After running errands wit them, we went to Aristocrat and ordered some BOMBASS FOOD! Hahah, then aftaa that, I just went to shleep in the car, then mom ran more errands. And then, we went home to change real quick, then we went to Festival mom. I got to buy some school supplies we needed. We also got to walk around all of Festival, yaay. So I have officially went alll around Festival mall. Hahah. Then aftaa, we got to eat at Wendy's! Yipee! Even though I was cravin' a Monster Coke Float, its gooood. Hahha. Then after that, we went homes, got ready for the next day of school, then shlept.

Day Two : I was kind of prepared for a looong day ahead of me, until I remembered that this whole day will basically be all about introduction -_- Introducing ourselves to the teachers and whatnot. So, yeah. Haha. It was quite boraaang! Then afta school, me, Edly, Lianne, and my lovely braaahder Dylan went to Dunkin' Donuts. Haha. I ordered a choco sprinkle donut wit an icy choco. YUMMM! :D Hahaha. Then, Lianne left, leaving me and Edly. Then, when we came back, we met up with Bea. Then Edly left, leaving only me and Bea. Like always. Hahaha. Then, since brahder needed it, I gave him money to go home, teehee. Hahaha. Then, Bea vented about her missing Kenneth, aweees. But then I had to leave, which made her be stuck with Mikhael. Lol! :D Haha, then I got home. I immediately started doing hw. Cause zuuuh. Thass how it's gon be this year! Haha. Anyways, aftaa that I went online. Lol. I had a weird talk wit Albert, haha. Even though he's in my class, I feel like, Im so distant from him :( Im always used to turning around and seeing him there :( But not anymore :(( He's like waaaaay across the classroom . Then, I "made up" with Martin, since I was bein such'a snob/biaatch. Lol! Then, studied Filipino wit the 'rents since I needed it, lawwl, then went naniteee :D

Day Three : TGIF! Buuht, I was like, faaack, cause it was gon be lessons allll day. The day felt like it was gon go on FUHHHEVA. But, I was just exagerrating. I just found out one of the guys in my class likes me, and NAIR. EWH EWH EWH EWH YUCK. I think he heard me say it, but shiit, I NAIR GIVES A FCK. :D Hahah. &Eff you if you think Im mean. He reminds me of my little cousin, and he looks, ugggh. Omfg. Hahah! Anyways, afterschool memories , like always. Love love love. Got home, changed, ate. Went on the lizzaptop, watched tv. Ate bread&cheese, cooked bacon&eggs then ate it wit rice. Ahhh, im hella satisfied right now. Kbizzye!

You wonder where you're going next

Pt 1 : Yesterday : Did nothing . Today : Try to be effin productive Michelle -_- Sheesh.

Pt 2 : Dreaaaaaaaaaam entry! Haha! Anyways, my dream was so weird! So I went to sleep thinking "Trace, Trace, Trace! Dream about Trace!" So anyways , in my dream, it started off with me looking at a gift. It said to "Lavender Mimi" HAHAH! I was like, wtfffffffffff? Lavender Mimi? That sounds so effin gay. And I read who its from, and it said "Ant" . And Anthony from Metro Station usually writes that after a tweet. Haha! And then I look behind me, and Anthony was helllllla calling my mom Tita? Hahaha! I was like WTFFFFFFFFFFFFF?!?!?!?!?!!?!? Then after that, me and someone were on the floor . But we had a towel and a signed poster with us. I forgot who was in the poster but anywayssss. Hhahaa. Anthony was hella like, give her Trace's towel and a signed Metro Station poster. I WAS LIKE WTFFFFFFFF HELLA FREAKIN' OUT. But only Mason and Blake were with him :( No Trace Darnicles! Hahahaha. But yeah, I meet too many famous people in my dreams! x)

Hehe, K bizzzye!

Strawberry Fields

Agggh, day started off with me finding out that we weren't going to have a family gathering D:<>:P Boo. Anyways, I pretty much just did nothing for the whole morning/afternoon. Hah. Then, my dad came home, and he came home with shnacks and new shampoo. Which smells so friggin bomgdiggity. HAHAHA. Then, my cousin came back from Japan, and my auntie gave us shtufff. I got a cutesie top, a shirt dress, watch, belt, candaaay :D Hhaha. Then aftaa that, just ate dinner, made burger patties and meatballs, then watch tv. OHP! And watched my all-time favorite MMK episode, by far. Details vv in Pt 2. Hahah. Anyways, now im watching tv with ateh until I fall ashleeep. SCHOOL IN LESS THAN A WEEEK! FUUUUUU- ! D:<

PT 2 : I dont want to get into the details of the episode, cause once I do, it'll be prett-ty darn obvious. Anyways, I love how the girl handled everything. Buut, everything happened to work out for her. We had the exact same situation, but unlike her, I pushed away every guy who was willing to be there for me :( Agggh. Fuhhget this topic. I LOVE TRACE :D Hahah! I cant seem to get Kelsey out of my mind.


*Ill swim the ocean for you, the ocean for you, woah -oah -oah -oah Kelsey :)

Shake shake ;)

That last picture of him is OH SO SHMEXXY! <3>

Look at his yearbook picture, Even without all the tats and the fame, I WOULD SOOOOO DATE HIM =)



Say hello to METRO STATION.

The day started off, quite swell because my mom made me a breakfast burrito :) Haha. Then after that, I just killed time. Then, me and my lovely best friend/ original had some Chelle&Jah qt =) Hahah! Then my mammas told me that she wasn't gonna give me money to go to Alabang Town Center to see ^^ Metro Station. So, yeahs, I was put in a very bad mood. But, thanks to Blanche for calling and Monet for pushing me to go =) Hahah! My mom gave me 200. My dad was going to give me more, but he couldn't find his money -_- Booshiet. So we got there, and it was a little before 6? It was gouuuda cause the concert was supposed to start at 6:30.

We saw people selling Metro Station CD's and if you are one of the first 100, you can get it signed. Too bad it was 255. :(( . We heard people calling us, and when we looked up, we saw that Martin and his friends were there as well. We waited for a reallly long time. So Monet and I went around looking for good spots. We found one in the verrry back. Then , the concert started. The view there was guuhreat until everyone stood up in their chairs! BOO SHIETS. So we raaan all the way to our old spot. The spot was still good =) Hahah! I screamed my lungs out, while the speakers almost blew my eardrum out. Haha, all in all, it was a good concert. Im too lazy to upload videos, so I shall do it tomorrow, or sunday =)) Hahaha.

After it was done, We took pictures with the posters since, well, we couldnt get near them :( Hahah! Then, Martin and them went downstairs to talk to us. Whoever his friend was with the white shirt, he was cute =) Speaking of cute guys, THERE WERE HELLLLALALALALA CUTE GUYS THERE! Americans, some other ethnicity, whatevs. THEY WERE CUTE! :)) Hahah. Then , we went upstairs to buy a drink. After that, they went back on stage to do their pictures and sign the CD's. I was soooo jealous seein' all the girls get to hug by him :( Hahah! So we went downstairs just to roam around. There was one time where a whole bunch of people screamed. So I went to where they were. What happened was, Trace threw his sharpie into the crowd. I hella went there waving/screamin and shiet, but he gave everyone the look like, whoops, no more :( . But I guess their keyboard guy saw me, cause he hella threw his sharpie in my direction. I had it in my hand for two seconds, and it slipped, and some fagget ass niggah bitch took it >:(

Then after that , we all went home. When Boys Like Girls comes here for their mall tour, ima buy a CD and a VIP ticket :)) Hahah! And when Metro Station comes back, ima buy a CD and VIP ticket as welll :D Hahahahah!

Now, I have a sore-ish throat, and lightheadedness? Hahah! Im'a shower, cause, Im in need of it x) Anyways, GOOD DAY. Gnight bloggga's!

&BTW! TRACE IS SO CUTE, THAT I DONT EVEN WANT TO BELIEVE THAT HE IS EVEN HALF RELATED TO MILEY. YUCK YUCK YUCK! BUT IF EVER THAT WE GET MARRIED, welll, I guess I'll just have to deal with it =) hahahhhahah! :D