Time after time

Im watching Prom Night with ateh right now and it hella reminded me of last year. How Ate Marya used us first year students as her "subjects" for her thesis. Her thesis was about how us young students react to scary movies. Hahah. I lahved it cause every month or so? We got to watch scary movies ^_^ Anyways. I want to talk about one particular movie we watched. Scream :) Haha, a classic. I remembered it cause, well, during that time me and Mikhael were together..... And we were watching the movie while we were holding hands :( Boo. And I was playing with his hair, and he made fun of me whenever I got scared, but he ended up comforting me. Gaah. We were such'a cheesy couple ^_^ But I lahve it. And I miss it :((

100th POST! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :)

Anyways, for this 100th post of mine, I would like to say why I like Philippines and why I like the Bay.

Philippines :

1. more fam functions
   
2. everything's easy peasy
   
3. all the things i used to miss, are right here
   
4. it brings back childhood memories
   
5. they still show shows like Rocco's modern life, and whatnot.
   

the Bay

1. friends, need I say more?
   
2. ateh.
   
3. the rest of the fam
   
4. better clothes? hahah!
   

Okay, so first things first. Im so sorry about all the emo-ish posts. All about Mikhael. But I cant help it. And this is my blog. Filled with my thoughts. So I can post whatever I want. And if you dont want to read, then quite frankly, i really dgaf. Wait, does anyone even read this? Hahahah!


to be contd :D

Baby wont you come and take this pain away

IM NOT OKAY. IM NOT ALRIGHT. I DISLIKE BEING YOUR 'BESSPREND'. But Ill take that rather than being your regular friend. But what makes me happy, is the fact that you dont make our 'relationship' awkward. You make it easy peasy lemon squeezy. But, I just want to let you know, that if she hurts and leaves you one more time, I promise you, it will be her last time. Cause I will swoop you right up, and never let go. And btw, no matter how many times people ask who do I really love? Theres only one definite answer : Jon-Mikhael Vince Rivera Cusi.

Party like a rockstaaar!

LIKE I SAID. I WILL MAKE 2009 THE BEST YEAR EVA ;) I STILL HAVE 4 MONTHS TO DO SO ;) K. THAT IS ALL. I SHALL "STUDY" NOW xDD

Im'a beast when you turn me on

*right click view image :))

Boo. This picture wouldve been so much better if that redhead chick was in it ;) She was pretty fuxy! Hahahhah :D Today, was a very good day :) Hahah! Let's start at the beginning yeah? Woke up. I was not feeling good, AT ALL. But then I got to talk to bessst :) Which made me pretty happy =) I didnt talk to him , for a month ? Or so. It seemed like forever, but whatever xD UGH, THAT ONE CLINGY ASS NIGGA BTW, NEEDS TO HOP OFF. CAUSE IM GETTING SO FUCKING IRRITATED DDDD:< . Ugh! Then we ate. Then I showered. Then since I promised Aimee I would look fuxy for her whenever I could, I dressed up quite nice ;) Hahah! Pictures will be posted soon. Just, not, today. HAHAHAH! Obviously. Then, we got ready. Then we were off to Manila Memorial. Going there, I was reading and studying, since next week, is EXAMS. Ugh! When we got there, we just took pictures, spent time there , prayed then left. OHP! We each got Tita Cory shirts. It was cool, cause we all had different designs :)) hahahha. Anyways, after visiting Nanay, we went to visit Tita Cory. It was pretty cool. Cept for the fact my mom cant take pictures for shieeet xDD Hahaha! Then we were off to Festival mall :)) The first thing we did , was drop off Tita's laptop to get it translated. Then we went to go buy tickets fa G.I. Joe ;) Hahah! Then we ate. Then we went in. Pwahahah. My hussssby looked so foine ;) If he just shaved off that thing on his face tho. I laaaahved him more in his Coach Carter days ;) Haaaaaye!! Hahaha! Then we ate at Super Bowl of China. BLECH! I will not go back there to eat :P Ever. Yucck! &OHP! Me and ateh got shirts from Petit Monde ;) They are quite nice shirts :)) Hahah! &Now, im pooped, and i need to sleep early, for i have to wake up early, to study -_- K, gnight!

my thoughts you cant decode

M -Yes , I know you love her, a lot. Yes, I'll be able to live with it. But no, I will not be okay :(( I can say it to you, I can say it to everyone else, and I can say it to myself, but I know for a fact I will not be okay. I have spent 7 months saying yes, its okay. But no, its not. &Its hurts. And im tired of crying every night. Im tired of crying whenever Im alone. Im tired, sick and tired. &What's even worse? It's been my fault all along ....

O - You're sweet, out going, spontaneous, and you're my type of guy. &Yes I was glad when I heard that you liked me more than a crush. But, please. For now, let's not go past that? I dont want to ruin this awesome ass friendship we have. You remind me of me and besst, so please. I dont want a relationship like this to end by making it awkward. I just hope that that like doesnt go past where it already is right now. Which is why I've been kinna distancing myself. Didnt you notice that? Wellps, chyeah. THANKS FOR THE STUFFED ANIMAL THO :) [even tho it wasnt really meant for me -_-]

D - I dont know what to say. I told you I used to like you. Then you said I do too. So I was guessing that that meant you like me , like , right now? Haha! &What i've been thinking is what Edly always tells us.. You instantly like the person who likes you. And I dont want that. Cause what if you dont really like me? I know about you and Kathy. Please stop denying it. Its even worse. Cause its like youre using me to replace her. Please. Stop. And I believe youre mad at me cause I wouldnt say I loved you. Why are you mad? I don't love you, its as simple as that. I can't do anything to change that. Right now, yes I like you. And maybe sometime in the future I will love you, but not now. And so.. yeah. Please, dont be mad.


drama rama -_-

maibabalik ba ang kahapon? (can yesterday be brought back?)

So, if me and him were still together. Today, would have been our 8 months. Yesterday, I gave him a letter telling him how I felt. How, I still loved him. And how it did hurt me when he asked out someone else after just a month of our breakup. But I also included, that if he doesnt feel the same way, then he doesnt. Cause, wth can I do? Nothing... So I told him, that I hope that this letter doesnt ruin the friendship that we managed to build. And that I hope things dont get awkward between us. And just earlier, I found out that he's going to ask her out again. And he told me he was going to reply to my letter tomorrow. And what sucks is the fact that my birthday might start with me bawwwling my eyes out. :( I already did earlier, but that doesnt mean, it wont happen again tomorrow. Blach! Whatevs clevs. On the brighter note, Oliver and his girlfriend broke up. Taahaa! Jk, im so mean. -_- Hahaha. Anyways, I just hope my birthday this year, is a birthday to remember. +++ its the basketball tune up game tomorrow ;) Haaaaaaaye! Bring em boys out ;) Hahah! xD

+fuuuuuuuuuuu, i cant stop crying :((
121208444 < / 3

I will love you, always and forever.

lifes full of challenges not all the time we get what we want

IM CRAVIN FOR SOME (HIS) LOVIN'

:( Booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. I miss your daily im's. And nightly phone calls. How you made me feel like I was the most beautiful girl on earth, regardless of what I really look like. I was the happiest girl when I was with you. And though I didn't say much or do much, looking into your eyes while holding your hand was enough. A simple text or IM from you, made my day. I felt like we were one of the cheesiest couples out there saying "I love you always and forever" but, IDGAF. Cause you know what? I meant it. I will love you always and forever. I dont know what the future has in store for us, but wether that love maybe affectionate, or just a friendly type of love, I still love you regardless. Hearing you say "I love you" or "I miss you" or "I want to see you already" made me feel like I was floating on'a cloud. When you tell me, you just im'ed me just cause you felt like it. How you called to say MERRY CHRISTMAS exactly @12. How you called to say Happy New Years :) Yes, these little things made me happy. VERY happy. Happier than anyone in the world maybe. Remember how I told you, I didn't deserve you? That was true. You treated me like a little princess. Like everything should be givin to me at my command. I miss forcing you to go home, because you always want to wait until I get picked up. Which forces us to have a childish fight saying ;

-Fine, im not gonna say I love you until you go
-Say it first then I'll go
-*pinches face* NO! NO NO! You go first
-*he stands still and towers me, fckin gigantor xDD*
-FINE! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU :))))))
-Always and forever :D

That used to happen? Everyday? Hahah! You made me feel comfortable. You made me feel at ease. You made me feel like the most beautiful girl in the room. You made me feel , like life was really worth living. You made me feel, these feelings no one ever has. When you told me not to be jealous of all the other girls trying to get at you, you said dont worry, cause you chose me. And not them. Then things went all wrong, and we ended up, breaking up. &When you got a girlfriend just a couple of weeks or maybe a month or two later after we broke up? Yes it did hurt. But did I show it? No. Did I make a big deal out of it? No. Instead all we did was ignore each other. And acted as if the other person didn't exist. Dont you know how much that hurt me? :( . And then we made up just a couple of months ago. Which was perfect. A new schoolyear, a new start. Brand new. And when I first met your mom? Ofcourse I was scared! I thought she wouldn't like me. But she was friendly. And she actually wanted us to stay together. Cause she said I made you happy. &On that day, I told myself, I was going to make this relationship work. I was going to fight. Until you just had to screw things up. And you gave me an easy way out. You told me, we should break up cause I dont want your parents to find out. Ofcourse I took the easy way out. It was the only choice you gave me! If you were to say, let's fight for this relationship. OFCOURSE I WOULD HAVE CHOSEN THAT OPTION.

I dont know if im feeling this way, cause "she" likes you now. And im jealous. Or maybe ive been feeling this way all along? And ive just been lying to myself thinking otherwise? I dont know. But either way, I would really like if we had a second try :((