some things i just got to get off my chest

• I hate it when people tell me to do something, a certain way. Cause then it makes me mad, then lazy. So instead of originally planning to do it, I end up ignoring the person, and not caring about the work that needs to be done.
  
• I do my best to do something that'll make you guys proud of me. So if I can't do it at home, I try to make you proud of me academically. Do you know how happy I was when I found out I was top 3? Then you hella just shut me down like that, I mean I'm not gonna let it bother me, just take my feelings into consideration.
• Dont think that just because I said that means I want something to happen between us. I love you, but not in that way. I dont want to have you as a boyfriend, but I can't live with the thought of ever losing you as someone special.
  
• Everytime I notice you online on AIM, I just have to i/m you. I dont know why, but I have never stopped liking you. From the moment we watched Shutter together, haha! (That gave it away, lol) Urgh. I just wish, that we could have had more time to spend together :)
  
• &Last but not the least : I dont blame you for anything thats happening right now. I just wish you had the courtesy to tell me what is going on. Its been 3 days since we last talked. Youre always telling me to tell you the truth so that it wont be awkward between us, but wth do you think youre doing? I hope that you wake up from this fantasy that you're having and realize whats really going on......
  

change my mind, doing the 365 project in'a seperate tumblr :)

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January 1, 2010 (around 12)

We watched fireworks and lit fireworks. Took lots of pictures and whatnot. Mostly playing with fireworks , haha. Ate lots of food, but I didn't eat much. Does that even make sense? Haha! Anywhoo, this is the start of my 365 project ! ^_^

January 1, 2010

Mom&Dad's friends are at the house for New Year's, which leaves us kids, with nada to do! Waah, grrrrrrrr. Hmph. Anyways, we have school in 2 days. Hmph!

*I might not post the pictures everyday, but I will take a picture everyday. Haha, get it? Or no? xP

Resolutions

• Lose weight, and im serious about it this time :)
  
• Workout/Exercise every night
  
• Become a better person. To myself & to others
• No drama bullshit. Hah!
  
• Clean my room & make sure it stays clean
  
• Stop bein' such a bitch to other people
  
• Get good grades :)
  
• DO THE 365 PROJECT :) Which I will be posting on here ^_^
  

In 2009 , Michelle learned ...

• No guy is ever worth it. In 2008 , she never let a guy hurt her like that. She was the one making the decisions and she was the one doing whatever the fuck she wanted to do. She was Ms. Independent. Every girl wanted to be like her, and every guy wanted to have her. I'm not talking about me. Im talking about the Ms. Independent in all of us girls out there. We shouldn't let one guy ruin us. We shouldn't let one guy get the best of us. They don't deserve our lovinn. Mwahaha >:) We're too good for them playa playas anyways :))
  
• You can do whatever you set your mind to. I told myself that I could do better in my schoolwork, and what the hell, I did do better :) I didn't lose focus and I didn't get distracted, well... Not as much that is :) Haha. I told myself that I can get over him, and even though my mind didn't believe it, my heart told me that I could move on and that he's just one of the many boys I'll encounter in my life ^_^
  
• Blood really is thicker than water. I wouldn't be who I am if it wasn't for my family. They are my backbone. They are my everything. Despite the fact that they annoy the hell out of me most of the time, I still love em to death ;) No matter how far we may drifft, something will always bring us back together. That's the beauty of having a family like mines tho :) Bittersweet. When its bitter, oh boy, is it bitter. Haha. But when it's sweet, you can't get enough of it =)
  
• Some relationships do last. Take mines & Jah's for example. Its been what? 2 years and ... 2 months? Mwahaha. See? We do love each other long long time ;) Haha! &look at mine's and Ferdie's, haha! After a whole year of not talking, he still remembers his bestfriend :) Lol. We freal need to kickit one time. We've been here for almost 2 years, and we haven't even seen each other, not even once. Booshiz. Look at mine's &Mela's, I mean we may not be as close as we were before, but something will always keep us together. &that is the promise of being best friends forever, corny as it sounds :D Haha! &Most of all, my relationship with my father dearest Marco. Even if we don't talk for a whole month, or two whole months, or three whole months, he will always be one of the number one guys in my life =)
  
• People change, wether we like it or not. I had to learn that the hard way. But it's a lesson learned :)
  
• 
  God doesn't give us anything we can't handle. He will give us many challenges and obstacles in life , but he will not give us anything we can't handle. He just wants to test us, he doesn't want us to suffer. So no matter what we do, we shouldn't over-react and whatnot.
• how to use facebook. Mwahaha. Yes, I barely started using this year, but hey. Whatever stfu. Haha! It looked interesting, and myspace was really getting boring
  
• Tumblr isn't as interesting as before. I made my first tumblr in '08. And people posted really interesting stuff. Like, real blogs. About their thoughts, insights in life and whatnot. Now, tumblr is starting to become the new myspace. And who the fuck really cares about your tumblarity bitches? Haha! Get over it. People who post a whole bunch of stupid shit start to cover up those who post real shit. Which is why, once a month, I unfollow a lot of people, haha :))
• Photography is more than just taking pictures. Its about capturing the emotion you felt at that exact moment. Capturing your surroundings. So that when you look at these pictures in the future , you can still relate to it &be like "Oh yeah! That was the time when ... blah blah blah". Haha!
  
• Enjoy the little things. I mean yeah, I would rather be in Cali with my best friends, but then again, that shouldn't stop me from having fun with my friends here & my family here. I have fun here too so when people ask me where I would rather be, I usually don't know what the eff to say.
  
• Sometimes, always&forever, doesnt always mean always&forever. "I love you forever, forever is over".
  

Cwissmass Eve : Well we got up and relaxed for a little bit. Ate breakfast. Then showered cause we were going to SM to buy last minute gifts. Then we went home and started on our food. First things that were made : My brownies. Ateh's fruit salad. Then after that we started working on the main dishes like spaghetti and stuff like that. Then we had to rush and went to church. Everyone rushed to get ready. And as usual, I was done first. So I had the chance to KTFO on the couch. I was soo tiyurd. Haha! Then I woke up with my Kuya's hat on my head o.O I was like, uhm, k? Haha! Then we went to church for the Simbang Gabi and we meant to go to the 8 o'clock mass. But we ended up coming towards the end of the 7 o'clock mass. So we stayed then finished the mass. When we got home we just did finishing touches on everything. Mom cooked the stake, finished the carbonara and boom. NOCHE BUENA TIME :DDDDD Hahah! We ate, damn. I was helllla full. Then Ate Em called. Then open presents time ^_^ +I got 500 from Kuya Alex. Wheeee :D Me & Kuya watched Weeds for a bit, then I went to sleep.

CHRISTMAS DAY :) Got up. Took a shower. Got ready, then went to Cavite. Didnt really do anything but EAT. Play with fireworks. GET MOOLA ^_^ And thats about it :D

Ellow blogspot :)

I missed you. Anywho, Im going to update you with my life more often than I do on Tumblr now :)) Haha! Or atleast try to :)

So let's see. December 20. We went to Imus for my godsister's and cousin's birthday. My godsister Nicole and Cousin Louise :) haha. We didn't really do anything. We just hung out, jammed to music, and ate (just like any other Filipino party, mwaahaha). Then we went to the court to watch volleyball played by gay guys. Omg, I love them. They make me laugh, and they are now my new volleyball inspirations. I could not take my eyes out of the court, suuhwear. Haha. That's how interested I was. Lol.

December 21. I woke up at 6 am. Cause they said practice was 7:00 am sharp. So I took a shower, got ready and left. I left at about 6:50. Just enough time to get to school on time. Then I waited there for like half an hour. Until finally Edly came, then other people came. But Mr. Michael wasnt there yet so I texted him and after a couple of minutes, he was there. Then, training started :) Wahaha >:) Oh how I missed it tho, freal :) Haha. Running, jumping, serving, setting. Waaaah! Haha. &For the first time ever, I didnt feel tired after. Kinna sore&thirsty, but not tired :)

December 22. Ugh, stupid shit. Im hella heated today. Just want to be left alone. K, bye.

I havent been having good days lately. Yeah, I may smile and laugh for sometime, but when its said and done, im sad & pathetic most of the time. &Recently I havent been doing anything except crying. And I knw its stupid. Cause, Im crying over the littlest shit. Like how we're still here, how no matter what the fuck I do, I still cant get over Mikhael. No matter how much I force I myself. &Things at home. At the end of the day, I am a miserable wreck. I punch the walls and scream my lungs out. It makes things better for a while, but then after that, its gone.. Im back to my old self. Fuck the year 2009. Bring me back 07&08.

Those people up there are the only ones that can brighten my day no matter what they do. They dont even have to do much. They just have to be with me, and Ill be super duper happy :)

So morning, I was disturbed cause Moley kept barking, and I was trying to sleep. Then I realized that I had to get ready early. So, I got my ass up and went to see what was outside, I realized that it was a package. The package that my ateh sent September and didnt come till now. Haha! So that made my morning. Seeing as how she gave us (some) of the food&snacks&stuff we wanted. Like Cheez-Its, Cocoa Puffs, Lucky Charms, CARMEX! Magazines, and whatnot. Then I got ready.

I waited for like 5-10 minutes before Blanche came. All I did while waiting was walk around. Then after Edly & Lianne came, all we did was talk and then finally! Bea came :)) Hahaha. Then we drove to Alabang Town Center and we chose the later time to watch New Moon cause the one before that already started. So we walked to BK and bought food. Yuummmm Whopper Jr! It came with a free sundae too ;) Haaaye! Then we went to JB so that I can finally buy kuya's guitar string. yaaay! mission accomplished :) I have yet to try the new yogurt place they have, white hat? haha.

New Moon. It wasn't bad. It was better than Twilight, Im sure about that tho. Bella was finally darker than Edward. &the part where she had nightmares, it gave me the same feeling I got when I read the book, which was good. &The whole months passing by scene, it was niiice :)) haha. Then, I cried like a little bitch again, cause I remembered that I was reading that book when I was with Mikhael &I said that Mikhael would never make me feel this way, hah! Its funny cause I was so naive.

After that, we just walked around. Talk about making my feet all kawawa! Haha, then after everyone left, I decided to go to Blanche's house since my numnums Lindt missed me so much, and wellps, I miss her just as much :( Haha. But when we got there, she wasnt home. Boooooo. So yah. After that, I went home &well, here I am :)

Omfg. Blogspot, I missed you :( So like, here are the main things going on in my life right now.

• I started going on the 6 o'clock diet. (it really works btw)
  
• Whenever I watch tv or whatever, I lift weights and do push ups xD
  
• I try to eat less. Haha. Keyword try.
  
• I am doing better in my studies.
  
• I am going through the stage of acceptance Ü

So yeah. Thats about it. Im mostly on tumblr now :( Even though its hella overrated now. Haha. K, talk to you soon <3